From Dairy:- A fight between thoughts and emotions. ( 2023)

                        Just a draft of years back. 

When all types of problems occur in your life, you get depressed and try to sort it out, but you aren’t getting anything because your mind stops working well. When you have the responsibility of your family, when you have the stress of home expenses and loans, when you are doing a job and don’t have time to take care of yourself and your personal life, and there is no proper time for sleeping, but you wake up just an hour before your office time. When your friends and colleagues don’t care about you, and your girlfriend breaks up with you. When you have pressure of work and you can’t even go to the marriage or birthday of dear ones because of office leave limitations.

When you always feel alone with all these things and after all try to get motivated yourself and ask yourself to win the match of life, when you really don’t feel well, when you don’t have time to take even a deep breath without any frustration. With all this, when it’s your sister’s coming birthday and planning to be gone. With all this stress, your performance goes down in your office even if you are excellent, and you listen to your boss and seniors. When your resignation is not getting approved and your new joining is offered but still pending. When often you don’t eat your breakfast and lunch and sometimes skip both.

Still, you smile and interact with people and colleagues with happiness and freshness. And when you get exhausted every day with the same things and the depression of all these things, you want to move on and take a fresh breath, but actually it’s not getting done. And with all this, you still have to speak softly and genuinely, even with high anger inside, with your seniors and boss in the office. All day you break down, and after coming to your room in the evening, you just eat and sleep, reading and calling unseen chats and numbers.